And one year later she blogged again. Ha!
I seriously can’t believe it’s been just over a year since my last post. I feel like this blog has become more of an annual report than the detailed, photographic stories it use to be, but hey… life happens and things change. And life has certainly happened to us in the last year; twists and turns we never expected, pruning and new growth in places we didn’t know needed maturing. A major shift has happened in our life and I’ll be honest, it completely caught me by surprise. In many ways, it’s what we always hoped for, but it just looked and looks a lot different than we anticipated. But I guess that’s just… life right? It never goes how you think it will. Ever. :)
Most of you know that for the last 15+ years Zach has worked in full-time worship ministry. This has been his passion and very clearly, the place and purpose God has called him to be. We’ve loved the wonderful people and congregations we have been a part of and have been blessed to have a front row seat watching the body of Christ share the love of Jesus with the world. Even though ministry has always been our primary focus and Zach’s vocation, he’s dreamed of being a professional songwriter for a long time. For years we’ve talked about what it would look like to give his time to the church vs being a full-time staff member, but it just was never our reality and that was totally ok. We were content with where we were. As Zach’s job responsibilities within ministry steadily increased over the years, his attention on songwriting really just… fell to the back burner and we weren’t pursuing it at all. Our ship was clearly sailing in the direction of ministry leadership and we were perfectly happy with that.
And then one fateful day in 2016 the wind abruptly changed when his song Grow Old (a song written 8 years prior, before we were even married) was cut by Florida Georgia Line. Let me be clear: He did absolutely nothing to make this happen. lol (Now that we are in the music business, we realize how strange, surreal, and unheard of that is.) This event shifted our sails and Zach began traveling to Nashville monthly and writing with new intensity. We prayed and prayed that if this was not the direction God wanted us to go that he would close doors and show us when we needed to do something different. To our surprise, the opposite happened - doors were flinging open- confirming our path, and we began wondering if that old, dusty dream was going to become our reality. A few months later, the stars aligned for Zach to have a worship pastor job AND a song publishing deal in Nashville. One of these things by itself would be a miracle, but both? At the same time?! Although the timing of this move was not what we wanted, we knew we had to follow this rare opportunity and let go of some other dreams we had back in Atlanta.
We were so hopeful of what God had in store and so Zach headed off to Nashville while Allie and I stayed behind for her to finish the school year. The day after Zach arrived in Nashville to start his new job at the church, his song publishing deal fell through. Literally THE. NEXT. DAY. The publisher had a sudden leadership change and as those folks transitioned out, Zach’s offer went with them. To say we were shocked, confused, and disappointed was an understatement, but we continued to trust that God was in our circumstances and that none of these unforeseen events were outside his plan for us. It seemed like He had created the perfect storm just to make us move, but for what purpose? We weren't sure.
When Allie and I joined him in the summer of 2017, I transitioned from my job in Atlanta to part-time self-employment doing contract marketing. I had never been self-employed before and in many ways I really enjoyed it, but it was also very challenging not having coworkers, working from home, and not having full-time work. I did that for about 6 months and then the winds changed for me too and that work seemed to be coming to an end. I wasn’t sure what I was going to do next, but soon an opportunity to return to my previous industry opened and I began working full-time again. It was/is a huge blessing and I really enjoy what I am doing even though I no longer have a completely flexible schedule. This job transition for me proved to be a Godsend because literally THE. DAY. AFTER I started my new job, Zach transitioned out of his church job. I won’t get into the nitty gritty of why, but it was a massive blessing even though we had no idea what on earth we were going to do next. We simultaneously felt such relief that specific season was over, but also such panic over the future. It felt like the wind that was once blowing strong, had suddenly left our sails completely and a storm was brewing on the horizon ready to sink us. For months we asked God lots of questions… not understanding why he would open so many doors to bring us to Nashville and then close so many once we arrived. It didn’t make sense. It was a brutal winter - dark, cold, quiet (literally and figuratively), and we had no idea what to do next. It was hard. My anthem during this time was Seasons by Hillsong and I clung to the truth that God was preparing us for something in these quiet, still, hidden moments, we just didn’t know what. Zach explored a plethora of ministry opportunities, but most of them were in other cities in other parts of the country and it just didn’t make sense to relocate again even though it seemed like nothing was ever going to materialize in Nashville.
Although Zach was quickly back to leading worship at another church in town, it was/is just contract and not a staff position. Since no local, full-time worship positions were available, Zach decided that he would take the time to expand his songwriting skillset and teach himself how to produce music. (For those outside the industry, this is like digital composing and actually creating all the instrumental aspects of a song, recording all the vocals, etc). This would give him more to offer a publisher and also open the door for contract work as a “track guy”/producer. Over the next few months, Zach put in an enormous amount of time and effort to learn this aspect of the industry and 6 months later, he has become one of the best “track guys” in town. Even though a lot of his success is based off his ridiculous talent, I am SO proud of him and how tirelessly he works to support our family. Often times musicians are stereotyped as being undisciplined, lazy, and aloof, but Zach is the antithesis of that. He works harder than anyone I know and I am inspired by the determination, diligence, and excellence he maintains every day.
And because of all this and his mad production skillz, on September 5th, Zach FINALLY got a publishing deal!!!! Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Ya’ll… we’ve been waiting on this for 2 years! (Insert a million praise hands emojis!) Since his original deal fell through, there has been a lot of interest from other publishers, but for one reason or another, something always stood in the way of the deal materializing. Even though at times we wished the last two years had gone differently, this deal was worth the wait and is honestly more than we could have ever hoped for. I am very happy to announce Zach is now a professional songwriter for Sony ATV (the biggest publisher in the world!) and is partnering with renown songwriter Jon Nite. At the moment, that is all I can share, but there is a lot of momentum and things happening behind the scenes right now that are really encouraging and exciting. I pray daily that God will bless Zach’s efforts and I am so grateful we are seeing fruit come from the work of his hands. And ya know what’s really crazy? Remember how he started a new church job and one day later lost his original pub deal? Well this week he started a new role at our church and one day later SIGNED his pub deal. I mean… the timing is for realz cray. Only Jesus.
Simultaneously to all this professional stuff going on, there is our sweet daughter Allie. She is amazing y’all. If you don’t know her it’s 100% your loss because she is the loveliest teenage girl there ever was. She is smart, wise, kind, funny, respectful, patient, creative, and just a total gem. We are so blessed and honored to be her parents. The biggest heartache for us leaving Georgia was leaving her school and friends, but wouldn’t ya know… God had that figured out too. :) The christian school she attends has been exactly where she was meant to be and has opened up so many new doors for her. Last fall we did some college counseling with Karina to help Allie identify her gifting, wiring, and what might be the best path for her career-wise after high school. Based on that experience and taking graphic design at school, she’s planning to pursue graphic design in college. This is a great fit for her and she has so much natural talent. We are really excited to see how God plans to use these gifts in the years ahead.
As for college… in addition to the college coaching, this past winter/spring we did 4 college visits and fell in love with Lipscomb University. We honestly knew nothing about it before visiting, but it is truly the perfect school for Allie and bonus - it’s only 20 minutes across town! This summer Allie was one of 60 students accepted into Lipscomb’s Summer Scholars Program. She spent 10 days on campus taking a class for college credit, living in the dorm, and doing a lot of special activities just for SS students out and about Nashville. She had a blast, met a lot of wonderful people, and got to experience Lipscomb and college life up close. This experience sealed the deal for all of us on where Allie’s next step would be. Due to her admittance into this program and the Lipscomb dual enrollment classes she does through Goodpasture, she is already accepted to the university! We don’t even have to apply. How crazy is that? And due to dual enrollment courses, AP class, and her summer class at LU, she will graduate high school with 27 college credits! This is huge and will give her a significant jumpstart on her college courses. She is very excited because after senior year, she will never have to take another math class! haha
We feel so deeply blessed that God has answered so many specific prayers in regards to her education journey and are just giddy with what the future holds for her. It is overwhelming to think through all the ways God has perfectly timed and aligned this opportunity for her. Although my heart is already heavy with the realization that this is her last year at home with us, I am so hopeful for what God has for her and believe the next 5 years are going to be filled with so many wonderful things. I wish I could list out all the ways God has shown up in her life - the absolute miracles and open doors, the people, the experiences… and how much she has grown over the last 3 years specifically. I know it might seem like everything has been a breeze and been all sunshine and rainbows, but let me tell you, this has not been an easy journey.
When Allie came to live with us full-time in 2015, she was transitioning from a homeschool setting and was not prepared for traditional school. Her first year was SO HARD- for many reasons, but especially academically. I pretty much audited her classes so I could help her learn how to take notes, study, prepare for assessments, manage a schedule, keep up with assignments, learn how to communicate with teachers, etc. She was in tutoring - before school in the mornings and privately after school. It was a brutal uphill battle every single day, but she pushed through and made it. We all made it. And then she changed schools. lol Although we were so grateful God miraculously opened the door for private school (it’s been the very best setting for her), private school provided new challenges and expectations. I hated her having to start over somewhere, especially when most her peers had been going to school together since kindergarten, but she needed that environment to stretch her in different ways and help her grow. It was hard, but she did it. We made it and she eventually fell in love with her community there and was thriving. And then we moved to Nashville. And she started over again. Sigh. And faced another new environment with different people and a different culture, but she has handled it SO WELL and grown so much and I just… cannot even believe how far she has come academically, socially, spiritually, mentally, everything. So when I say she is already accepted to our college of choice and will be graduating with 27 college credits, maybe you can somewhat understand why this is such a humongous deal and celebration for us. It is truly astounding and so much evidence of Christ in her life. We are just beyond thankful and give all glory to God for the beautiful gift of Allie and the life that He has built and is building for her.
Reflecting back on this past year… a few thoughts….
- It was honestly one of the hardest, heaviest seasons for us. THE STRUGGLE WAS/IS REAL. At times it felt directionless, lonely, and down right terrifying. I wondered, “Was God with us? Did he care? Why was he allowing this to happen to us?” I began asking myself a really critical question: “If nothing worked out in Nashville and everything was a total failure … could I still have joy?” To be honest, initially my answer was no and it revealed a lot about the foundation of my faith. I realized how much of my security had been found in salaries, steady employment, and having control instead of trusting God. I knew I needed to let go and let God be enough, even if I never saw another physical blessing. Psalm 34 is the only complete chapter of scripture I have memorized (thank you DGroup) and the first line always stops me in my tracks. It says, “I will bless the Lord at all times, his praise will be continually in my mouth.” It’s so convicting. In all circumstances, can I or will I choose to bless the Lord? Will I praise him when I face hardship, frustration, disappointment, difficult people or only when I get what I want? I am working towards being able to say “yes” in all circumstances and resting in the truth that He is enough no matter what my circumstances are.
- This seemingly desert time has also drastically improved my views on entitlement and gratitude. I think subconsciously, I always felt like the “norm” was for everyone to have a quiet, simple easy life without much drama or pain and I’d get frustrated when that didn’t seem to happen for me. I’ve come to realize that brokenness and difficulty are the norm, and the quiet, uncomplicated, seemingly perfect, care-free moments we get to experience are simply glimpses of heaven. I find myself relishing in those moments a lot more than I use to -finding wells of gratitude I didn’t know were within me over the smallest thing or “easy” moment.
- It’s kinda crazy to look back and see all the threads of our story being woven together over the last few years and how efficiently God has been using our circumstances to move each one of us forward in a myriad of ways. What at the time felt like capsizing was really… just the wind changing direction to take us somewhere new- somewhere we always hoped to be, but we just expected to take a different route. If you think following Jesus and trusting him with everything you have is some sort of crutch or weakness or spiritual nonsense, I can assure you… nothing yields more adventure, more true richness from life than following Jesus and trusting him with everything. Trusting God with everything you care about is incredibly HARD and a daily choice, but so very worth it.
- It also is kinda surreal to see your dreams come true. Not just in regards to Zach’s work, but also in Allie’s journey. For years we prayed that God would intervene and give us primary custody, and then he did. We prayed for private school doors to open and they did. We prayed for great friends and he’s brought so many wonderful people into her life. We've prayed for "eyes to see" what she needed and how to help her grow and he's come through every single time. We’ve wanted so much for her, so many new experiences and she’s had so many wonderful opportunities to grow. I didn’t realize it at the time, but moving to TN when we did fulfilled a dream we didn’t know we had- a dream of her attending a small, christian college close to home. We always knew a small school was going to be the best fit for her, but we never dreamed it would work out so beautifully for all of us.
Our story is by no means over- there are still questions to be answered, doors to be opened, provision to be provided, lessons to be learned, etc. but I’m thankful to be where we are and letting God lead no matter how strange, unexpected, or rocky the path might be.
In closing, I do want to share a few highlights from the last year. You didn’t think I would post something without pictures did you? For those of you who actually read this entire novella, thanks for hanging in there and you deserve a prize! Haha
Zach and I went to Phoenix last September. I had never been to the desert before and it was such a fun trip!
For Thanksgiving we took our annual trip down to Mom and Dad's in FL and had a great time with our extended family.
We dogsat our favorite little pup Therman a few times this year and love his visits. Isn't he just the cutest?!
Our very first college visit with Allie was Berry College in January!
Allie also had jaw surgery in January and it produced A LOT of initial swelling...lol...
but eventually a beautiful, perfect smile when she got her braces off a few months later! haha She was SO HAPPY to be able to eat chips again.
Adventures in charcuterie board making for various work events... These are so fun and so easy to make!
In April, Allie's friends from her old school invited her back for prom and she had the BEST time. I am so glad she got to do this and continues to maintain a friendship with these girls.
In May, Zach and I took a trip to San Francisco and had a great time exploring Muir Woods and the coast.
At school, Allie was asked to do all the graphic design for the spring musical (Mary Poppins) and did a great job.
Zach has played a few shows at the Listening Room this year, but none were as fun and funny as this night with special guests Dennis Quaid and our amazing friend Kiley Dean!
At the end of June we got a few days over at Lake J with my parents. I love this old house and pray it stays in our family a long time. Mom and dad have been doing such a good job taking care of it!
And in August, Allie had her SENIOR pictures done by Lindsay Alexander. Lindsay is one of my true ride or die friends who is more like a sister (which is ironic since her name is Lindsay). She is encouraging, full of wisdom, and never shies away from speaking truth (even when it's not what I want to hear). haha She is a true , faithful friend and I love her so!
I mean isn't she gorgeous?!
Well, that's all for now. If you read this entire post, chances are you actually care about our family and for that I am so thankful. All the prayers, encouragement, and support mean so much to us so thanks for coming along on the journey with us!